Before beginning Lit & Lit Study in the Digital Age, I was unaware of the overwhelming influence of women in the software engineering profession and was oblivious to the fact that they essentially pioneered the creation of the first computer. I found my ignorance appalling, and in reading Broad Band, I have developed a better understanding of the relationship females have with technology. I found the idea that the word “girl” was once interchangeable with “computer” (24) both empowering and somewhat disquieting; I was shocked to find that their work reshaping the technological landscape was considered, for a long time, rudimentary. I took pleasure in reading the accounts of several glass-ceiling-shattering women in the field like Grace Hopper, though it was disheartening to hear about the failure of the world to acknowledge their triumphs and the general lack of respect paid to them. As I have entertained the idea of pursuing a minor in Women’s & Gender Studies, I believe I must always endeavor to better understand areas outside of my immediate academic interests where women are underrepresented (such as STEM). I like the fact that this class forced me, from the get-go, to confront my own biases in that I thought I was incapable of doing anything computer-related for a long time, shrugged it off, and said it simply wasn’t for me, a notion that festered rather paralyzingly in my brain and was rooted in some kind of internalized misogyny. On a similar note, I have found some striking parallels between my other English courses and this one: for example, the etymology and implications of words used commonly in computer jargon now like “manuscript” and “stereotypes”—even “ontology.” I was apprehensive about beginning this class as I thought it might stray too drastically from my other ones, that it would distract from my study of literature and overemphasize the growing digital aspect of it. I was wrong, and have since learned the two go hand-in-hand, that they are inextricable. As texts are digitized, I must grasp my changing relationship with them as a reader and scholar.
On the more practical side, I have learned how to better navigate my computer. I now know that my computer terminal exists and that I can interact with it in a number of ways, such as creating and monitoring my files and other activities. I am more comfortable exploring the functions of what I can do on my Mac and am better equipped to take advantage of all it can offer me, even at times googling fun commands to experiment with. It is also true that troubleshooting errors in my commands have become less nerve-inducing, as I was once irrationally afraid that I would somehow erase all of my data; now, I recognize that the software allows for mistakes and is, more often than not, forgiving. Also, I find it easier to ask for help now and trust that if I do make a mistake, there is likely someone able to aid me in remedying it.